and roller coasters? wtf. hahaha
indeed the best things in life are free. :)
i told myself i would not date or have a bf for at least a year but it’s just hard if someone is doing everything to make your stony piece of a heart beat again. i’ve avoided this feeling, thought of everything i hate about him. practically pushed him away with my ‘katarayan’. but those eyes, the way they stare at me, it’s like they can see right through me, they can break the wall i’ve built, they make me feel beautiful, like i’m a very special girl. i forgot how that felt, my last guy never really made me feel that way for the 2 years we’ve dated.
i’ve always thought i’m being strong for being alone, for not entertaining anyone, any feelings. but now i think i’m being more of a coward, not taking risks, holding back from things i actually enjoy just so i won’t get used to it and eventually get hurt. why not face them and if i do get hurt again then just start all over again. now that’s being brave.
so someone asked me, what have you done that’s extreme and exciting?
well, i have never ridden a roller coaster, i haven’t tried surfing or skating and i have been scared of relationships and intimacy for a while now but you’re making me change my mind. just hold my hand and i will ride this crazy roller coaster with you. (figuratively, not the actual roller coaster) haha :)
gotta love those mornings. weeeee.
